Feelin' Blue

Hey readers!

Hmm it's been a rather reflective week. Have spent a lot of time withdrawn in my own mind and thoughts...probably a silly thing to do, when you're thinking you have time to dredge up all the crap. Despite the fact i've working full-time effectively in the Ormonds my mind gets to thinking. Some old demons coming back to haunt me. I suppose even when you're surrounded by people in a sociable environment, it's easy to feel very alone, isolated and unloved.

I think, though, that sad songs are a very good thing to listen to, state of mind depending!! On the one hand yes, they can make you feel low, but conversely, as has been particularly true for me, they make you realise that someone has gone through the same shit as you. It's not exactly schadenfreude, because you're not taking pleasure in someone else's pain, only comfort. More to the point, if the composer got out of it and is doing ok, you can too.

Enough of this...Went out for a meal on Wednesday night in Bisley for Lara's 21st, very nice food in a charming pub. Heading out to Cheltenham tonight for her bash, dressing up as gangsters and bunnies. Still haven't decided which i'm going as ;-) Should be a lot of fun! Need to take my camera. Gonna hit a few bars and clubs i think. Speaking of bunnies, had a chance on Weds to see her 3-week old rabbits - they were sooo tiny and cute, fitting neatly into the palm of my hand. Very energetic too, and curious about their new world. Says she's gonna keep one, and i would if i could!

Gonna sign off for now, until next time guys...
A melancholy jack x